I left my blood in San Fransico

Ok, as we all know in life some people have fears. I have more than my fair share. So i went on a road trip to see birthright people who I went to Israel with and Ian, Matt's best friend. So we're chillin in Berkeley with Ian for the majority of the day and later head to Oakland where Matt and I reunite with Arnon for hot dogs and hot coco (dairy before milk)... Anyways we crash at his pad and the next day try and see Matt from USF. So heres Matt and I on the bay bridge for three hours. I gotta take care of some stuff and this guy is trying to jump off the bridge. So of course I am yelling "jump jump!" while matts yelling at me that I should be more compasionate to a man whos obviously distraught. (I think hes selfish for imposing on so many lives, but i do feel deeply sorry for the guy) Anyways then We FINALLY meet up with USF Matt who buys Matt and I lunch and then proceeds to have a pledge wash my car. Eugine was an awesome sport about it. (i have pictures of anyone wants them) THen Matt and I drove cross town to Shanie's appartment and met up with Paul, Dave, and Molly. Very exciting when we all met more people at the cheesecake factory and hung out that night. So heres where my vacation turns... First off we watched 8 crazy nights. That makes me think of my mommy cause Whitey has her voice. Makes me sad and I cry. Yes, i cried at Dave's appartment. Then we get back to Shanie's place and I end up at the hospital. This is where the "life thought" takes place. When you're in the hospital at 3a.m. and you are the only sober person being treated. We totally take for granteed the fact that people are willing to study years and years to cure and save us. Then they treat the staff poorly and cannot comprehend anything going on. It saddened me. So as I am on my best behavior and being helped... the RN says "Rachel, we are not sure whats wrong... we need to draw some blood" Mind you... the reason I was there was because I was bleeding made me worried. So my response goes something like this "I am not a damn pin cushion!" I ended up allowing him to do it. I didnt cry, didnt pass out, and didnt give him any problems. I just allowed him to help me. So I maynot be over my biggest fear, but now i can see it maturely. Its to HELP me, not torment me (I was confused about that before apparently) Well I am on antibiotics now and doing better. Matt was absolutly wonderful to me and everyone has been watching over me well. Tonight my family gets together for Pesach and I am excited. Ok so i cannot drink the first year I am legal to, but its ok. I'll be surrounded by loved ones. So, I left my blood in san fransico (Lindsay says its ok cause it actually pumps through my heart) and I have learned that although that man jumping off the bridge has far more troubles than I do, we had something in common that day... we both needed a lil help from a medical professional. The difference is he's probably still with the cops and I am back in OC in my lovely little appartment flushing my body out with fluids. :) Happy Passover!

A tribute to my dad:


I just got home from Greg's house. Hes like a big brother to me. We ended up talking about family and what we want when we're older. Then he proceeded to ask me what I want in a person. I realized I want someone like my father and thats where my thoughts have led me astray.
I have to thank my dad. There is no man in the world who has been such a loving and supportive man. I am so glad i got him. Hes never missed a bday, hes always taken days off work when i was sick, took me places, made me eat with him every sunday morning, taught me love for the ocean, always showered me with love, took me to the zoo, colored with me, let me paint his face with makeup, made me attend temple, always was faithful to my mom and I, went sledding with me, bought my girlscout cookies, ate my snickers when i went trick or treating, went to the horse races with me, always made me do well in school, promised to beat up boys who hurt me, always made me hug him and kiss him before i left the house, helped me move into my first place, traded baseball cards with me, bought my my first mit, gave me my first car, made up games with me, changed many of my diapers, takes me to the hospital when i break bones, calls me daily at my appartment to sing me silly songs to make me smile.... and to think he even said he loved me every day when i was a teen who dispised adults... this man is my living hero!
I guess the past few days I have been so affraid of how horribly unethical politics have been and how depressing it seems to raise kids in this enviornment, but my dad has done such a good job (Dont think my mom didnt.... she did half the work!) but i am so impressed and please to have him as my male figure. So when I was talking to Greg about a man I want for my kids... he has to be at least half the man my dad is.
Dad, thanks for being the man every kid wishes to have as their pops. You are by far the most outstanding man I have ever met. I love you very much.

I am reading (for the millionth time) The diary of anne frank for class. It's funny how when you're 12 and read it, then when I was 16, and now at 21... just sitting in my appartment, alone and quiet. Here I am reading, thumbing through the pages of a life stoped short, when I come across my last name mentioned in her journal. I had family around where Anne was and although it may not be my family at all, my eyes could not be removed from that word on the page. Yes, I lost a lot of family in WWII. Many died in concentration camps and were shot by the SS. I tried to get past that one word, but it was like all other words had dropped off the page as I was reading the fate of my family in some 13 year olds journal. I finally got a glass of water and was able to continue, but how many times did I have to read the book before I was going to notice my family name mentioned in a book full of death and discomfort. I guess I am more aware of the world at 21 than I ever was at 12 and 16.

Today Israel is being bombed by Syria and Lebanon... I made calls to my family in Israel and wrote a sincere email to those who are in the IDF. I urge anyone who reads this to do research for themselves. I read the Wallstreet Journal and their commentary disgusted me. It was bias and completely incompetent. Either way, this maybe another battle in the eyes of Americans, but for Israelis this is what they do daily. I am slowly learning that I cannot trust people to inform themselves and that I must educate myself to become a better supporter of my father's native country. I implore you to do the same. Not because you are Jewish or Israeli... You maybe completely opposite, but because you care about world affairs and politics. You MUST realize that civilians are being killed. Yesterday a young Israeli girl was murdered by an axe splitting her skull... yes, an extreamly sad story! Please, protect yourself from ignorence, it maybe the only way to support countries other than our own.

Something to think about…

Today, March 21, 2004, I am sitting at my desk at Cal State Fullerton realizing as an American I am not patriotic. I am questioning why after last nights experience, when I met a man who served in the army, I am not proud to be a citizen he so graciously protects? I found my answer quickly. He is protecting me, but my governing body is not. I am now becoming at risk of loosing all my personal freedoms. You must be questioning what exactly makes me feel this way. Let me share with you…
The government has been at war in the Middle East for well over a year now. Terrorism has not disappeared and many men and women my age have fallen. On the home front, we as a society are not dealing with that loss. We have an election to tend to and some amendments of the constitution to abridge. The issue that concerns me the most is what I would like to identify as the “anti-gay clause”. How absurd can this country be? While we are dealing with hatred from other countries we are now also inflicting a dislike for our own. When our founding fathers created the constitution and our country they did not say that gays were not people too. If we put as much emphasis on the war as we do on denying our own people’s rights, the war would be over and Bin Laden would have been found. Such wasted energy disgusts me.
What concerns me the most are the people who feel since they are not gay that this does not apply to them. This should be a wake up call! This is how the Holocaust started and how we imprisoned Japanese during WWII. There major events in history occurred because the mass population did not feel directly effected, so they felt no need to intervene! What makes separating their freedoms from heterosexual’s any different than making a black person use a different water fountain because of the color of their skin?
I am not gay, but I am concerned for the homosexual population in the United States. Just like many other Americans, we are all different in some way or another. This should be celebrated! What people are missing is that once you have taken rights from one type of group it enables the government to do it again. Soon Catholics will not be able to practice because they are infringing upon the president’s beliefs. Maybe blacks will have to move to the back of the bus again. Someday women may loose the right to vote because we are fewer in numbers than men. Immigrants will not be allowed to drive and have to pay higher taxes. What right does the government have to impose these inhuman laws upon people?
The American public is missing the mark on what this country was founded on; equal rights and justice for all. Instead of creating more hate upon minorities, we as a large community need to ask ourselves what rights we feel we are willing to give up. Laws that take away from certain minorities only fuel the public for hate crimes and social isolation. The line will not stop with gays, it will continue until the government feels it has gained “moral” control over all of its occupants.

Phone call-

Sometimes its the sound of the furry persian man who makes you giggle for over an hr when you should have been studying. Also, its he who makes avoiding scarey guys easy... have him call and say he's your dad!

Ali... you're the shit! I missed ya budy! Have fun with the brain in lab tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cammel dreams.
Rach

Free time!!!! This my friends is a Halmark Moment! I am done with my homework and have a half hr before my class! Whoa, this is almost statistically impossible. It makes me wonder what homework I have over looked, but who cares! I am sure its only worth a ton and I forgot it. :) Tomorrow is voting day. YOU MUST VOTE!!!!! its your civic duity, u cannot bitch about the president if you do not vote for him. Although, if ur vote is going to Bush, please stay home and do NOT leave. Bleh on Bush. Goodness I am a republican and I dont like him. I wish I could but he's ...well I wont get into it. I am politically charged. ALthough, if you disagree with me I am ok with it. We are all intitled :) I also cleaned my room. Dude in kindergarden i would have two gold stars. One for my homework and one for my room. How cute huh? As for everything else, I am applying for an internship and we'll see how that works tomorrow. As for now... I am gonna bask in my nothingness!
Rach

I went to the snow with Chris from down the hall yesterday. He went Skiing and I played snow bunny. I fell asleep on my lawn chair in the midst of all these children throwing snow balls... this proves I can sleep through anything. I had a good time though. Me, all warm on a lawn chair, in about 4 layers of clothing, my beat up skater shoes, and a scarf I aquired from Nimrod in Israel. Its probably the most beautiful and well earned nap I have ever had. Ahh the comforts of 32 degree and below weather. Once chris and I came down the mtn. I almost ran out of gas, but luckly we hit a station and we didnt have to push my car (its not like i drive a bug). After we bought limes and lettuce and BBQed at my place. Had a Corona and headed over to what I like to call "Mike's Club House". I show up and find Mike, Mark, Jason, Dave, Jen, Joey, Steve, and Stephenie chillin' with like 25 beers at their feet. Chris decides to partake and I chilled with my buddies. Later Edmund, Mark, and Jeremey show up as well. What Studs...! To make a non exsistant good story short... We all had a rockin time when Joey got naked and danced in the kitchen. On the bad side Chris lost his phone. If you find it boys ...CALL ME! SO here I am atempting to do my homework before the school week starts and I am letting you all know its comming along just fine ;) Wish me luck!
Rach

Avoiding another study night .... I think i have Senioridous. Thats a serious disese in college. I am cheering up a whole lot. Things seem to be comming into place just right. I am realizing Starbucks is like chicken soup for the sleeping soul. I cannot wait to house sit this weekend for my parents. Its going to be nice to sleep in my old bed again. I should go home more often but I feel like I dont have enough time in my day for three healthy meals, how am I going to relax so far from school? I wanna get more tickets to a ducks game. Lindsay, we need to go again! Whooohoooo hockey! I also need to walk more often. I used to do it religiously. WHoa, this is all over the place. Well off to study, cause i need to.
Rach

I just think its funny how some people cannot run their own lives, so when they see you mess up... they run yours. Kinda puts a damper on the growth process.... either way no ones mind is changed with threats. I figure hey, I am 21... I am allowed to be human. Yeh human! So I am gonna go back to studying :)
Rach

Well We have all missed quiet a bit... I went to Israel for a month. The best time of my life. I did more growing there than I have anywhere else in the world. I grew emotionally, spiritually, and ate a lil too much falfel. Then I got home and things got weird. Maybe because I went through culture shock or something of the sort... I dunno. But, the worst happened. I broke up with Stu. Yes, Mr. perfect. I dont know what came over me. I didnt want it to happen. I know I didnt think it would be perminent. We loved one another. It wasnt supposed to be that way at all......... but it did. So now I am sitting here in my room continplaiting whats important. I know he is, but I cannot have that. So I am finding that whats important is to be mature about things. Really know whos good for you. Lindsay is that person for me. I know that sounds like some massive lesbian action, but really... its a best friend. Its someone to take you out for ice cream when you need it or to hug you when you cry. Shes the person who makes me shower and do something with myself (normally she begs me to slow down) because this blob once known as Rachel isnt cute anymore. Its nice to know that when I am not near my family that she, Nadia, and Chris can be mine. I had this talk with chris about what its like to be "homeless" (its dorm lingo for not being close to mom and dad) and I learned something. We are one insestual family on this third floor. This is my home along with 23 other people and I actually enjoy every single person for their own reasons. I took chris home with me last weekend to do laundry and kinda hang out. It definitly made me realize how close he and I have gotten. If he ever reads this, thanks chris. So to the three of you kids... lindsay, chris, and nadia... you're the shit. To Mr. Unforgetable... well you still have a special place in my heart

I turned 21 on the 22nd of october. 36 people showed up for my get together at TGIF and I wasted my evening in the bottom of empty glasses that damaged a small portion of my brian. Later I crewed myself and 7 others to vegas where more sinful acts commenced. Yes. I had a great time up until i got sick and then it hit me on my 10 hr car ride... what the hell am i doing with my life? I am 21 years old, almost done with college and I have goals and oppertunities that present themselves to me daily. This and my family have been the number one things in my life, but i feel compleatly unfulfilled right now. I wish I knew why. I think its because of my religion and how i havent found anyone quiet like myself. I feel seperated from one of the most important men in my life and I am about to make some rash and horrible decisions if i do not wisen up soon. I am sitting alone (for the first time in weeks) and contemplating all my friendships and relationships. I think i have noticed where I have made poor choices and where people have gone sour. What I cannot understand is why i cannot easily fix my so obvious issues. Life is so damn complex. Not only does what u want and what your actions are affect you... but those around you too. I wish for once I didnt have to be responsible or i didnt have to care, but i guess that means i love those around me. I cant just walk away from them. Ya know between law and religion I have hundreds of rules to follow and yet somehow I am able to follow many of them and still find myself looking for guidance. Are humans that in need of structure? Am i compleatly programed to follow what I am told? Why now am i dying for someone to tell me what to do and what i cannot do. This behavior isnt from an adult. Its my birthday... i am 1 year old, 2 years old, three years old.... up until you hit 21. I am stuck somewhere between grade school and middle school right now and i guess I am begging for the 21 year old to kick in and take charge. I hope this fresh year brings me more guideance and more patience to see what is right and best for me and those I love.

Ok, its been a bit. Anyways I am almost 21 so Oct 24th-26th i am gonna be in vegas with Stu, daniel, nick, phil, sue, and bridged. Woohoooo. Well well well. As of last night the fire alarm went off cause the girls on the 4th floor blew out their candles. Good work ladies. My car is a new 96 ford explorer. It kicks ass and i just got it washed. I think the vegas trip will be fun in it. Daniel and Stu are comming in my car so i think the three of us will have a good ride. :) NO not like that u sickos! As for school... well i am passing. Isnt that a releif? I dunno. I am very hungry. I should make myself a sandwhich. I am gonna jam now.... If anyone even reads this... see ya!

I cannot sleep. ENglish 303 is kicking my ass and I dont have much else to say about it. I am scared more than usual about this mid term and i think the 3 shots of espresso (against my diet) are kickin in on full force. As for my hecktic life... well its going well. I got to paint my self portrait recently and I have been chillin with Stu an aweful lot. Hes probably the grounding force in my life right now. I really do miss my mom and dad though. I am not so much home sick as i am missing my two best friends. Sometimes i wonder what it would be like to just move back home. Recently i have also been craving pizza. Yeah, i know its bad for me. I havent yet, but watching these kids in my place eat all day makes me wish i was them. I have less than 22 days before i am 21. I cannot wait to splurdge. I know i sound like i am bitching, but what i am really doing is having a talk with myself. How important it is to be the way i am right now. I am really working on my heath. Its good to be selfish sometimes. I am just happy Stu looks out for me and supports me. As for my roomates, they are kind and loving. Jennifer has been smiling at me more so I am making more of an effort. Shes gonna be cool once she opens up i think. BTW, AMy... my pal from last semester.... shes the one tutoring me for 303. I owe her more than i can understand right now. SHes gonna save my ass this time and I mean it. As for Sarah, I am glad i have got her to connect with. Seems she and Jer are getting things worked out and I am happy for them. Sarah has got to be one of the easiest people to love here. She calls herself selfish, but i really do see her helping me and supporting me before herself. My eyes are becomming tired. I wanna sleep but i am afriad if i do then i wont remember what i studied. Can i be loosing my brain? I wanna hug stu right now but hes asleep. I think i need less social activity and more of this studying. I did it for about 6 hrs tonight and i feel better about my right to live here and how my parents pay for everything and my education. Speaking of which, i need a new car! Poor herb is very sick. Matt has been a living hell recently. (I cannot believe i published that comment) Its so true though. I mean common Matt lemme be with stu in peace. Its hard having someone love u, and u love them too... but u know hes horrible for u. Stu is the most gentile and kind hearted individual. Hes really good to me and for me. My mom has noticed how much i needed him and shes very pleased hes with me. Ya know, as much as i wish sometimes i was not me, i have to realize i have the best life. Hey, thats a VERY possitive comment for 3:10 am before a midterm so i am gonna end with that and say goodnight, so.... goodnight!
Rach

Well its the end of september and I havent written in here since July. Hmmm a huge gap I see. Probably the most important gap in my life and you all have missed it because I have slacked off. Well here goes nothing:

I moved to Fullerton, Ca by my lonesome. I ended up meeting a guy thats far beyond my wildest dreams (even if right now he and I are not on the best of terms, we'll work it out). I have three new roomies, well I take that back. In spirt of family I have 7 roomies and 2 neighbors. See first roomies are in my appartment. Cheryl, the compleatly adorable kid who lives with me, Mai who happens to melt in sunlight (shes awesome), and Jennifer who after a month I dont know anything about but shes good at art. Then my other roomies... the men who make all this possible in my life. First Stu, my boyfriend. Not only is he my bf but my bestfriend here too. I dont know how much i can say without getting to into my personal life, but hes gotta be one of the most kind hearted and loving individuals. Then there is Steven, hes sooooo cute! Man laddies if ur lookin for a lil hunk with a huge heart.... steven's ur man! Then Nick, I think hes in denyal about being so hot as well... But hes great with the Easy Mac and fun to talk to. I give this boy an 11 out of 10. Then last but never least of my roomies... Daniel. Hes totally into clarienett (sp?) and likes to pig out on In-N-Out as some of us jog our butts off every day. Also good company!
My neighbors are Sarah (also the RA) who wants me to see her naked and is my closest female friend here. I think shes not only excellent at advice but loves me too! heh heh She has three roomies i also like a lot. My other neighbor is el jeffe. (Jeff) He's compleatly hystarical. I think he and i connect on so many levels. Heck i took him for his eye brow peircing. Yes Jeff, it looks good.

As for everything else going on right now... my car broke down and I wont get another one until November. I know I am kinda angry. Sucks huh? Well i am a spoiled brat whos never had to wait for anything... maybe this is just another life lesson. I think i have plenty of room for improvement so this is something I can learn from and realize real people dont get what they want always.... but thanks sarah for the match box car. I appreicate the convertable, but insurance for it is high! A red car????????? I am now a cop mag! :) well this is the quick 411 for you all. Miss u bunches....


As always-
Rach

It's sunday, and remarkably i have survived the 4th of July. That day we moved diana into the cottage with liz and then went to Jasons to swim. Billy came to pick us up in his "hot" ride and we all shot illegal fireworks off in the high desert. Its been a month and a half and Jason and I are still dating pretty seriously. (he'd hate me if he knew i posted these things online) But oh well... its my life :o) heh heh. Mom got her surgery done and shes feeling well. I am pretty excited that everything is moving along well. yesterday Calvin and Jason took diana and i to La Jolla. The boys went snorkling for a bit and us girls read on the cliff... I didnt have much choice cause swimming recently is no bueno. (but i got great pictures) As for the convertable... well we learned it wasnt a road trip car. Calvin and I cannot explain how badly our knees hurt.
So since i have been stuck in summer school and awaiting my move to the on campus resident life, I dyed and straightened my hair. Yes its much darker now with blonde chuncks in the front. Not cute, but very punk. I love it so i guess thats all that matters. My hair has to be straightened daily, so i dont know how long this will last.... but its a change and i needed that. As for everything else... well i start up art school again this friday. so i will be drawing more. I need that relaxation period. Well Hey i dont normally do this to post messages but PETE, yes u PETE.... i keep seeing ur old place and i kinda miss talking to you. I have been reading ur bloggs... glad to know your ok. See ya soon pal!

Rach

Ok, so its been a while. Strangly I have been to busy to putz around on the computer or pay attention to school. Ya know for a totally stressed out, overachieving, overly zellous student... I havent really studied all summer. I am taking 2 novels classes, you'd think the heat would be on. Goodness, one only knows why i am content with a C! Thats never happened before! I am starting to miss some of the faces in my old classes and passing by the appartments on campus is leaving me itching to move, but recently my peers at home and I have grown a bit more attached. I am almost driven to say that moving might actually have some remorse with it, where are before i was DYING for the change. BTW, while i am jabbing about moving, Pete ur old appartment is lonely without u... (i pass by every day cause i like E lot best :oP ) My dating life picked up quiet a bit and i was starting a summer romance.... starting is the operative word. Its done now (ahhh how time flies). My parents are slowly building a porch in the front of our wonderful house. The mystery of it is why am i using it more then them???? I LOVE sitting outside and reading. I coulda sworn i wasnt 80 years old. BUT i think i am an old fuddy duddy already. I would claim i am people watching, but there are no people on my block to watch. Oh well, so i am lame. I am buying a Disneyland pass and i have sworn to go a lot this comming year. Anyone whos up for it let me know! I am extatic about it. also, the first Girls night is this wed. (so it doesnt take away from basketball) i am looking forward to it. And an update on my hyperextended elbow.... shes all purdy and fixed! shinny as a new whistle so now i am a baller once again! HAHAHAHAHAHA, i rawk! jk. well kids its time to go back to study mode. Miss ya bunches and hope ur enjoying the summer rain (whats with that???)-

Rachel, the new "Shanps"

Wow... where do i start? Okie lets start from this friday when we all played basketball (i pooped out VERY early) and then we went back to Jason and Calvin's house. I went on my first (and hopefully last) motorcycle ride. Calvin made me wear his helmit and I had to hold on tight. I totally enjoyed his efforts to take me on a ride, but I was not much of a sport. The speed made me wanna cry like a baby. So he turned around and we went back to eat their food and watch the origional "Gone in 60 seconds". I was muy impressed by the 25min car chase. Saturday rolls around and Jason pulls up in his corvette convertable and teaches me how to drive stick. It took me three hours, but I ended up driving all over town and took my mommy for a spin also. He was adorable and I think my mom wants to keep Jason for herself. So after we all grouped at my house and went to some party in Glendora. This house was HUGE i kid you not! I was muy impressed once again.... So we went to Katys at 12:30 am thinkin we'd stay for an hr. Well we kinda all stayed until 7am (11 of us) playing games and watching movies and ate all her food! So then I went to Lizzies and crashed for a few hrs. Came home did two loads of laundry, baked cookies, did the dishes, cleaned Jinx's tank, took a shower, read some of Ethan Frome (horribly boring book) and went BACK to Katys where I made dinner with her for all 11 of us! So then we all watched Montey Python and the Holy Grail and i headed off on my Merry way. Whew I had the best time! I even have pictures. I am looking forward to going to the Angels game soon with Greg also... but he didnt get the tickets. Go figure. Anyways I need to make a beach trip but i am not lovin summer school. Hope everyone is doing well... I miss u all! MUAH!

Ms. Sleepy head Rachie

The times in your life that you enjoy usually mean that good things have happened to you. Today I got almost half the stuff i need to move from home to my dorm in August free from Ikea. It was cause my mom and i were in line at the right time. (like a door prize) Its funny as my mom and i left the store we both felt terribly bad that we had won... WHY? we are good people... we recognized that many of those people in the store probably needed to win more then we did. I have made it my goal to write Ikea and see if they ever donate to less fortunate. On another note I have recently felt a lot closer spiritually to my religion... I am surrounding myself in good faith. I have always been religious and faithful, but i cannot ignore that i feel G-d has spoken to me by making finals week turn out the way it did. I am content with my grades... i know i worked very hard and what ever i have earned i will accept. I didnt do well in basketball this week. I actually got cliped on the side and it hurt soooo bad. But i know that its just a game. I have become a better sport playing with the Clairemont group then i ever have before. The past two weeks i have done a lot of soul searching. Why I am shairing this i dont know, but i feel SOOOO much better. I cannot wait to go to summer school and then meet my friends in Huntington to catch a few waves roll in. I am ready to soak up the UV rays on my boat, read good literature, and count the days until i move from my little room into a world of estrigen. Well... its late. I need sleep. Night! Lila tov!
Rach

There is definatly something about basketball twice a week. The competition is wild and my body aches like it never has before. I LOVE IT! Ok, so I have discovered i can shoot 1 outta 3 at the 3pt line. I cant shoot in the key cause i am kinda scared.... those big tall boys can be intimidating. As for finals... I dont know why i am not worried. I think i am more worried that i am not worried. Char finally got her peice of woman hood this week. I am proud of her. Pete, dude ur gonna be fine... finals are not THAT bad. Fight the feeling buddy! I washed my car. I know this shouldnt be such an event, but it was the first time all semester i washed it. So now it smells ok now and there isnt a whole bunch of school crap in it. I finally got Joey to admit he likes Brandy... this is a good step for Joey i think. Admitting u have an issue is the first step to recovery! Heh heh. As for Steve (joey i know u read this)... I cannot believe how excited he is about this one girl. I am so happy for ya steve! Next week i start summer school. I am getting pooped with this whole education bit. Not like i am going to school to make money. I am gonna be a teacher for goodness sakes. We dont make money! AND i am missing WARPED TOUR for it! ahhhhhh someone knock me senseless... what am i doing to myself? Ok well i am pooped. i wanna get naked and hop into bed like a professional gymnist. You kids take care. Good luck this summer and party ur butts off (cause i'll be the kid in the back sleeping as the prof. goes off about how profoundly written American lit is). Ta ta ta
Rach