Thursday, April 10, 2003

Hey everyone-
I just wanted to announce i was absolutly disgusted tonight... thanks to a man who quoted "I didnt molest the sheep" i wanna puke! I think Mike and Steve can relate to how i feel. Its worry some when i cannot find an appetite. *sadness falls over my house* But then Mike made the night a whole lot better... see discussing with the group size issues is amazing.... when you have friends that take great pride in their bodies. "Small Mike, Big dick" I didnt know there was a guy named Richard at the table mike.... :o) anyways. If you wanna see the gang, here we are http://normality.net/images/digitalcampics/ okie... so the pics of me are not cute... my friends like to be naked, and ummm well.... we're just weird... life is good and i love u guys!

Monday, April 07, 2003

To my dear friend greg-
Greg.... if it werent for you Disneyland would be borning... school would be less eventful, and i think that the pelvic thrust would have been out dated.... you my friend are a sheer gem.... I adore you. Now, do us all a favor... dont reperduce until ur 35.... make ur wife hot and ....ummmm yeah. Anyways this is my lil i love ya update, cause i think someday u might even name a child after me.... i know i would.

Always good times at Ridgemont high
Ms. Rachie Herself

Sunday, March 23, 2003

I adore the ocean. Anyone who knows me knows i LOVE being out on the water. Today... the swells on the way back from Dana Point were HUGE! Now, for most people this is not fun... Having ur bladder bouncing up and down at the pace of the boat. (Usually about 20 knots) Its like a cheep version of a Disney ride, but with priceless scenery. Dad and I are going out again on Friday. He'll play hookie from work... Other then that lets see *ahem ahem* One week until Netto Babe comes down. And i have to share her with Greg, but thats OK Big Pimpin cause you got my back yo'! For the record shes at my casa Sun-Tues pal! So Bri and I went to Walmart and ran around for over an hr picking out carebears while slightly intoxicated. Well I was, she can hold her one beer... i am a cheep date. We got some pics of them, they'll be scrap booked i promise. I went to a BBQ with no meat cause Steve, Mike, Joey, and Jason devoured it. But they save rice for me and thats totally sweet of them. Thanks men! Kyle's performance was Saturday night. Dude "Ultimate Cheese Burger" rocks! Stanfords got nothin on Sac baby! And hey the after party wasnt bad either. woop woop! I was really glad i got myself to finally go to Kyles performance. Definatly something I would like to do again. Yeh to free entertainment for college kids! *claps* Over all it was a cultrual experiance. Okie dokers so I am kinda in the painting mood so.... guess whos off to make a mess? Yep thats right! ME!!!!
Take care and be safe-
Rachie (the cammel and the wine.... Bri ur always the cheese)

Friday, March 21, 2003

Today I woke up to the sound of death… silence. Today, March 20th, we as Americans, have literally sent bombs over Baghdad. This war has made many young adults question our country’s integrity and our patriotism. After my shower I went to the local gas station. (it’s on the way to class.) …the price per gallon? $2.16, that’s robbery! I had to question a few things, like why I was outraged by the price in gas, yet it never occurred that my tax money goes to weapons of mass destruction?
I live in a quiet suburb of L.A. Nothing happens here, nothing remotely dangerous. So, I had to question my safety in this “war for America”. Do I support the troops? Depends, as do all things. I think America needs protection, but the war is not on our soil. So I have to ask what we are defending. Do I wish our troops are safe? Do I pray for them? Every moment! Its “we”, “us”, that fight. It is my generation who’s to take a stand. It is our grandfathers who have sent us to war. These men in office have sent woman and children to their death. Who are the children? There is no age in which makes a child, it’s a mind frame. Our troops consist of many men and women, but more so, these people are children.
The American public is growing. In war growth is hard because of propaganda; the number one stunt of growth on the community. It is the blindfold of the American public. Its ironic to sit here in American Lit at exactly 1:30pm. We all are attentively listening to the professor. Students in Iraq probably cannot concentrate. The news hasn’t shown us this. The papers have yet to show someone fearful of death. And right now I am immersed in dead mans poetry instead of living people’s fear.
Now, at risk for someone reading this… I could be called completely unpatriotic. I disagree so strongly that there isn’t a word that remotely captions how I feel. I’m a voter, a tax payer, a citizen of the United States of America. I have a right to voice my opinion. I am expressing my patriotism by utilizing my freedom of speech. Protesters are the symbol of patriotism. Our country is naive and basks in the beauty of its youth. Those protesters are aging society, allowing us to become more aware, and perplexing the mass amounts of people they demonstrate for. Whether or not their voice makes a political difference it is the best way to educate society. It makes people question their beliefs, even if they are not congruent to those who speak out.
At some level we are all paralyzed by the war. More so on a metaphysical level. Time seems to be going at a slower pace and I think this time is not precious any longer. Precious is a word used to describe youth or angelic beings. This “time” is tainted and spoiled to American’s bloody hands. America, being a child in itself, is not playing with toy tanks and guns. This time we’re counting souls.
My message to my fellow patriots- do as you feel fit in this time of confusion. Pray, protest, be proactive, punish Iraq if you choose; but this is my plea- do not pretend that this war will not bring loss. Because many people in my generation have lost our innocence when the silence I awoke to this morning started

Thursday, March 20, 2003

Midterms love them or leave them:
I finally got my midterm from Caldwell back. I passed! I am so damn excited! So above all there is hope to pass.... I might not have to take Brit Lit again (which would be extreamly ideal) So that leads me on to two papers left and a rewrite which is going to be handed in AFTER break... :) Which leads me in the direction to Spring break which was supposed to be uneventful, BUT BUT BUT Netto is comming from Tahoe. I am so damn excited. Sometimes i feel like i never see anyone.... With Nett being far, greg always working, Clare in colorado, and Jack in Israel. Man, talk about me liking the long distance relationships. So nett we're going boating all week if its up to me... or at least Sunday. woop woop. I am sooo excited.
Ok, so the kindness act of the month award is now presented to my friend Jeff who spent three hours fixing my computer and only made me buy him McDonnalds. What a stud! Jeff thanks for being the best person in the world tonight. I owe u massive amounts of Nuggets! heh heh.... And Cameron needs to hit up that drunkin 40 year old dontcha think???
So i have had a lot on my mind recently. This war is really bugging me. I mean dispite my politcal outlook i still see this as people dying. I am really not ok with anyone passing away for reasons of politics. I guess when it comes to this type of deal i dont ever side with my political party. I seem to be a Democrat on many of these issues. I am definatly not registered Democrat (thanks to Grey Davis) but my pathos (i think) sides with them more often then not. I mean theres a 10 year old somewhere in this country starving. Someone is homeless tonight while i am laying in my warm bed and on a lap top. This makes me feel very sick. So, I am very against war. We have enough issues. We need to take care of one another. Ok ok so maybe i have pissed some of u off reading this... and thats ok.... maybe some of us (including myself) will think about others more often. I have decided in midst of all my college life i am a pampered and spoiled person. I am going to find ways to give to my community. This war may break up people and homes, but I refuse to let it break my moral. I am not asking anyone to change how they feel. I think its healthy to have ur own ideas and oppinions, but i dont think its healthy to forget about the less fortunate. I'm going to find away to help.

Hope all of you are safe and warm-
Rachie

Monday, March 17, 2003

Discovering shopping 101-
I HATE shopping. I have always hated it. I am soooo not cut out for trying things on and running from one store to another. Fashion? Whats that? Jeans and a sweatshirt arent fashion????? I mean common people.... they fit me ok... so i thought.... Well Bree (cheese) you got me into womens pants. You happy now? I am apparently on the first step to women hood and remarkably it did start below my belt. ;) hmmm go me! SO other then a very steryo typical female momment today I ran around town for my dad and went to class. Quiet uneventful, but... a cirtain someone passes me this hillarious note today (they know who they are) and it made me laugh soooooooooooo hard. So thanx mistery person for ur bit of humor.
Tomorrow back to school and such. Recently I am trying to become motivated to paint. I havent painted to much in the past 2 weeks. I need to develope my prespective a bit more. I need cash for canvas too... man i need a job. Oh wow (starting a tangent) today i used the virsa teller for the first time! go me go me! I had money to pull out. Doent feel like my money though when Mr. Machine gives it to me.... i best be careful. (back onto painting) So i painted a skateboard last time. it was actually better then immagined, but still less then desireable. I have to give credit to even the painters i am not a fan of.... It takes remarkable skills i dont have to paint. Although, I played violin 10 years and still paint better then i played. But hey, band camp was fun! (dont u dare laugh) Well now its time to say goodbye to all our company. M-i-c-k-e-y Y? because we love u.... M- o-u-s-e See ya real soon!
-Rachie

Sunday, March 16, 2003

A special thanks to Kevin...
I love when you and I get Boston Market! Heh heh, Kev our bonding sessions rock! We saw Chicago cause you know I love musicals. Such a good sport you are singing to the music.... heh heh shhhhhhhhhh. ;) So, now that I saw chicago i need to see bowling for colinbine. Its in the 3 dollar theater so if someones willing, lets do it!
This week I dont get to go boating cause the rain. Its been really pretty. Unfortunatly that means no sunday beach trip though (sorry greg). Netto... come home from Tahoe! I miss the heck outta you. Nett just think in a few months Hawaii.... wooohooo. okie dokers well i think u all owe me JK! Oh, Kyle, I am going next Saturday to your show so stop sweatin pal! See ya later u crazy crew.

-Ms. Rachie Herself

Saturday, March 15, 2003

Its 5:53am and I havent gone to bed yet... I dont know if its because I am not tired (as my eyes grow heavy as time is creeping into morn) or if this day has been filled with so many provoking discoveries. I have yet to find a relationship between any two people perfect. I think that there definatly are times when you grow angry at one another. I myself am single, I am less able to form romantic bonds. So i have to question my happiness. Am i compleate without someone? My answer, yes. I dont need anyone, I want them. I have decided that survival comes from within, and that a person who does not like themselves is without. It boggles my mind because I see all my friends carry relationships. Some go on and off quiet often, some are jealous of one another...maybe even nervious, others seem to be normal (but whats normal?). I always feel like the floater. As if i carry my place alone. Sometimes this brings me down to a superfical level of worrying about my hair and makeup... but really... someone who dates me cannot get attached to those things. (My hair always changes) I , myself, find my exterior to be somewhat trival. My inner being needs work. Not that i am dissatisfied with myself, but i have learned to except i am human. Being single does have its flaws though. Not cuddling up to someone or having a speical someone to call. Or the best part, knowing someone is thinking of u even when they cannot be there. Well my eyes are shutting, So as we say in Hebrew... Lila tov (goodnight) and since its early Boker tov ( morning)!

Rachie

Friday, March 14, 2003

Baja Fresh is Yummie. I am in the dorms just listening to whatever Jamiee has going on here. BUTTTTTT i felt like typing in for the day... So.... I am reading Emmerson and think i have fallen in love all over again. Yes, he and i have a relationship. First off he has such a wonderful disposition. I am totally into how he romanticised nature. He claims evil doesnt exsist. Well... He hasnt met some of the English professors at CSUF :) I think i could debate with him quiet well, but other then that his positive outlook really has me intreuged. I was reading Self Reliance in HS and loved it, but now... i think i can learn to love it even more. I need a beach trip. That would be dope. I think reading some of his passages at the beach could be inspiring. (Ok, i am lame but you gotta love me!) I really want to also see the movie bowling for colinbine. I havent seen it yet and everyone else has seen it or isnt interested in it. So if someone wants to see it with me, lemme know ;)
Wow, the tostada is kickin in. I got the Vegi.... yummy... meat is way over rated people! Come to the dark side... be a rebel, eat vegis! Although a sunday sounds good too... *hmmmm pondering* Okie dokers, so... *ahem ahem* (gaining composure) I have decided I am going to make a list of things i need to do. First off have u seen my room? I really need to clean it. But its sooooooo not fun to clean. I must be allergic. Then maybe study. Someone i know says i do it to much. Unfortunatly that person has natural brillance. I have to achive mine. (Although, I am a woman.... should come naturally eh?) The i am gonna spread my love. No not like that you sickos! I am gonna call my friends who are gone far far away. Colorado, Israel, Tahoe, maybe London if Adrian is up. Awwww how cute i love them! Heh heh.... you think Jamiee will mind if i use her phone? *giggles* ok ok i wont. But i could thjnk about it....
Last night i went to vist Mattie bo Battie. Matt if you read this... ur room smells gross and u need to do laundry. If you dont read this then i am talkin smack and u need to regulate! Grrrr baby grrrr. I also went to drop something off last night and i booked it to my car and i almost had a near death experiance. I never run that fast.... Quick like a bunnie. Woop woop. My randomness is amazingly intense. I need to lay off the soda. I know I am not Catholic, but maybe i should give something up. Hmmmmm well maybe not.. i need my cherry cokes. YUM! Okie i am gonna go play with Jamiee...... Fun Fun. Bye bye bye. *does a lil dance*

Wednesday, March 12, 2003

My first entry:

Wow, first off I am going to not pay attention to spelling or punctuation ever! I am an English major so this is going to be my rebellious stage. Today I got my first C-. Thank you Dr. McNenny. Grrrrr well she was kind enough to give me three weeks to fix my issue. Hmmmm 3 weeks to get a F for my revision. So I think i am kinda upset cause i went to my friend Pete's dorm room today after and had a shot of rum. I dont drink that often, but damn i needed that! But then i went kinda buzzed to my Brit Lit Midterms where i think i was much more relaxed. It definatly was a good idea to get a lil sloshed. Thanks Pete! The Mid Term would have been a lot better if it wasnt from Dr. Caldwell cause shes so damn hard, but o well. I actually knew what i was talking about. Proves my grade will be poor cause i thought i knew about my paper also. grrrrrrrr So here i am in my messy room starting an online journal. I dont have a lot of time on my hands, but for those of you who i dont see often this might catch you up. :) I think i am starting to really enjoy CSUF. I dont have issues talking to people now and i have recently discovered how pretty the Library bathrooms are. Woohooo! Ya know the 2nd floor of the library has chairs that are excellent for napping too. (Thanks mike for pointing that out!) I also have figured out there are these awesome sandwhiches they sell in the titan shop that are totally yummy. MMMMMM food! The things a college kid needs. Today Bree and I had lunch together. I like eatting with Bree cause she makes me laugh sooooo hard. Bree quit ur work and come play with me... ok ok so it wont work, but it might. I am looking forward to sunday. I get to go boating. I do it every sunday, but i need a stress reliever. I think i am becomming a lil anal about my grades. Way to into class if i am crying over ONE C-. Wow my thoughts are all over the place. Ok so i think this can end on an up note seeing that i am a possitive person..... I got a fav quoet today from Pete in reference to his grade while talking to McNenny.... "This is a whole lotta not good!" HAHAHHA


Much love kiddies!
Rachie
My first entry:

Wow, first off I am going to not pay attention to spelling or punctuation ever! I am an English major so this is going to be my rebellious stage. Today I got my first C-. Thank you Dr. McNenny. Grrrrr well she was kind enough to give me three weeks to fix my issue. Hmmmm 3 weeks to get a F for my revision. So I think i am kinda upset cause i went to my friend Pete's dorm room today after and had a shot of rum. I dont drink that often, but damn i needed that! Thanks Pete! So here i am in my messy room starting an online journal. I dont have a lot of time on my hands, but for those of you who i dont see often this might catch you up. :) I think i am starting to really enjoy CSUF. I dont have issues talking to people now and i have recently discovered how pretty the Library bathrooms are. Woohooo! Ya know the 2nd floor of the library has chairs that are excellent for napping too. (Thanks mike for pointing that out!) I also have figured out there are these awesome sandwhiches they sell in the titan shop that are totally yummy. MMMMMM food! The things a college kid needs. Today Bree and I had lunch together. I like eatting with Bree cause she makes me laugh sooooo hard. Bree quit ur work and come play with me... ok ok so it wont work, but it might. I am looking forward to sunday. I get to go boating. I do it every sunday, but i need a stress reliever. I think i am becomming a lil anal about my grades. Way to into class if i am crying over ONE C-. Wow my thoughts are all over the place. Ok so i think this can end on an up note seeing that i am a possitive person..... I got a fav quoet today from Pete in reference to his grade while talking to McNenny.... "This is a whole lotta not good!" HAHAHHA


Much love kiddies!
Rachie